Well today has been a hard day on all of us. Today we got word from our Vet that our cat Maxie has severe kidney disease and is only given about 3 months left. The Vet said that it was genetic and that it is very common among cat. And even if we had caught it a year or so ago, there is still no cure and we only would have extended her life by a few extra years but the end result would still be the same. Max's illness seemed to have come on so sudden but the Vet said it probably started a couple of years ago before any symptoms surfaced. But I noticed about a week ago that Max's breath had a foul smell to it and she had been drinking a little more water than usual, plus she just did not seem to be looking well. So Patrick took her to the Vet on friday for a check up and to have blood work done. I had done some research on the web for some of Max's symptoms and everything kept coming up with kidney disease and that is exactly what the test results came back with, severe kidney disease. Even though I had a feeling it was her kidney's it still was such a shock to actually here the Vet say that she had kidney disease. Patrick talked with the Vet this morning about the results and when he got off the phone to tell me he was practically in tears and I instantly began to cry. I can't believe my beautiful baby girl, my princess, is going to leave us soon. My other cat Balthazar just passed away 3 years ago on Thanksgiving day 2005 and I can't believe that Max is going to pass away soon too around the same time of the year and month as Balthazar. I seriously though she was going to live to at least 10+ years being an indoor house cat. But unfortunately that is not the case and I am just devistated and completely heartbroken beyond words. She is our baby and I am going to miss her so much it hurts. She sleeps right next to me or on my pillow at night. She wakes up with me in the morning when I get ready for work. She gives me endless kiss when I get home from work. She cuddles on the couch with Patrick and I at night when we watch our TV shows. She loves to hang out with Logan and Dylan and watch them play. And most of all she just loves to be loved and gives so much love in return. I am going to miss her so much it hurts very, very bad. I don't want her to be in any pain but at the same time I'm not ready to say good-bye. I still remember the day we brought her home from the shelter at 8 weeks old, both she and Balthazar were so sick and were covered in fleas. We cleaned them up and nursed them to health and they both grew into big healthy house cats. It feels like we've had her for decades but it's only been 7 1/2 years...ONLY 7 1/2 years!!!!! And now in a matter of months we are going to loose her. My stomache aches in pain and I can't help but cry and cry and cry when I think about it. She is our baby and no matter what anyone else says or how crazy or ridiculous they think I am, it's just as hard to loose an animal as a person!!!! So for now we are going to watch her and see how she feels day to day and soon we will have to make the painfull decision to let her go. I seriously wish I could stop time so I can cuddle with her for one more day and tell her over and over how much I love her, how much we ALL love her. She has made all our lives so VERY happy filled with tons of love and I am so glad for all the wonderful times we have spent together and all the wonderful memories. She will forever be my baby girl and I will forever love her...my beautiful, beautiful Maxie Cat.
